Thursday, June 12, 2014

The Roller Coaster After BC

as in Birth Control.

I have been debating whether or not to write this post for a while. This topic can be controversial and I am not one to "stir the pot", so to speak. However, I have had an invaluable experience that I believe should be shared. Please know that I value your opinion, but if you have something ugly to say, please keep it to yourself.

As I written before, I had congestive heart failure within 3 days of having our daughter. This left us with lots of questions and few answers. After assessing the damage, the big question became: Can I have another pregnancy? The immediate answer was no. Anton and I weren't ready to assign permanence to that answer, so we didn't want to take permanent action toward birth control (tubes tied, vasectomy).

Due to the uncertainty of why the heart failure occurred, the cardiologist recommended a low hormone or hormone free birth control. The cardiologist recommended an IUD. With that, I went in the OB's office for a birth control consult. I was nervous and wanted to make sure I made the best decision for my health and for my family. During that meeting, we discussed a few options, but the one that seemed the best was the Mirena. The doctor told me that the hormone would stay centralized and would not likely enter my bloodstream, which in turn should not influence my heart. I felt good about the choice and made an appointment to have it placed.

The procedure was flawless. The IUD was placed and I didn't experience any adverse side effects. During the duration of the of the time that I had the device, I was a fan. I hadn't had to deal with a heavy period or cramping. My mood was pretty steady. It was relatively easy and pleasant. I had a read a few articles about people having a terrible experience, but it wasn't something that could relate with, so I just overlooked it.

After four years, my heart prognosis changed. You can read about that here. Anton and I started talking about baby #2. I met with a high risk ob and he decided to take my case, so I made an appointment to have my IUD removed. Before having it removed, I looked up some articles on what to expect. There were mixed reviews, but I had had such a great experience with it in that I wasn't worried about what would happen once it was removed. Day #1 after removal was easy. No problems!

Day #2 was a different story. As was day #3-14. It was like all of those periods I had missed out on for 4 years, were coming back to haunt me. It was miserable. After that, I had cravings like nobody's business and then felt nauseous about 75% of the time. I then started having mood swings. Like roller coasters r us. One moment I was fine, and the next I was at my boiling point. Over the smallest of things. I began to remember some of the things that I had read to expect upon removal. They were all happening to me. I have now spent the past month or so cleansing and detoxing, trying to get my body back to norm. It has been a process and I am thankful for support and prayer. Lots of prayer.

When asked if I would do the Mirena again, my answer was no. It is now emphatically no! There is no way that that is good for your body. I am not sure what I would choose. I have a couple of options that I am looking at, but nothing that I am ready to share. For now, just trying to heal and waiting for news of baby #2.

Please note, this is my experience. I would have made a different decision if I knew then what I know now. However, I did make the best decision that I could in order to protect my life and my marriage. I'd love to hear your thoughts, but please remember if you thoughts are ugly or hurtful keep them to yourself.


Friday, June 6, 2014

Summer Reading...Had Me a Blast!

This summer I decided that Karrington and I would make sure to read at least 4 chapter books together. This may seem a little ambitious, seeing as she is 4 (well, nearly 5) years old. My mom always read to us and I have fond memories of those summer days. We would all gather around and listen to Hank the Cowdog or another chapter book we checked out at the library. I enjoyed these moments well into my teenage years, thought I probably wouldn't have admitted it at the time.

On our first day of summer break, we headed over to a local bookstore. For future reading options, we will head to the library, but the library nearest our house just closed. Anyway, we went to the book store and explored the children's section. I wanted to start with a book that has been made into a movie. I took a children's literature class in college and had to read a myriad of children's books. One of my favorite's was Because of Winn Dixie by Kate DiCamillo. It is an easy read and I thought that Karrington would love the story. It was also a movie that I had seen on one of our subscription movie services, so it was a win.

We started the book right away. My plan was to read 2 chapters a day. This quickly went out the window when she requested that I keep reading. "Mom don't stop, I want to hear what is going to happen." We would read until she started rubbing her eyes. I knew then that she was going to start to lose her focus. We ended up reading our book much more quickly that I had anticipated and finished the final 8 chapters on Wednesday night. We were close, so I was just going to read a little before she went to bed. She didn't want to put the book down. As a book binger, I completely understood and indulged her desire to finish.

Tonight, we watched the movie. It was so fun to hear her figuring everything out. "Mom, when is Winn Dixie going to be here?" "Oh, that is Sweetie Pie." And so on... It affirmed to me that she really had been listening. And excited me as we go on to the next book. We will traverse to the other side of town next week to get to the library and get our next book.